What do I do now?

I am no therapist. And I can't officially diagnose you, however, I do have some background in psychology. It appears that you have Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD). You seem to be down during the winter months.

If it takes you months to get to a therapist, then I would suggest that you start in about December, before it sets in too early. That isn't to say that you shouldn't do something now. I would suggest at the least get outside (especially on the sunny days), but I would remove the therapist option.

Here is hoping you feel better.

Sounds like things are really getting on top of you. I don't know what to advise but it sounds like you do need to see someone. If there are things you need to vent you're always welcome to drop me an email. I'm not easily offended :)

Your layout seems to have gone quite wrong. I'm sure a little tinkering will fix it though!

Okay, so your layout is actually fine and it was just my browser having issues :)

You got me all confused and worried for a second there. I knew I was having problems with the new system but I didn't think I was quite that bad!

I know the blog board isn't quite right, I want to change the colour of the text but I don't know enough of CSS to do that yet.