Upgrading!

I have gone a head and upgraded my blog.  I decided to do this because I have too much here at blog city that I neither want to loose or want to start again with.  It would be just too much hassle.  I am still not used to everything and things like the blog board is not working and I can't fine tune things like changing the colour of the blog board text or the size of the text, but I'm slowly getting the hang of things.  I'm also in the process of trying to learn CSS so I can adapt things using CSS coding.

I have also decided (in fact already have) deleted my creative writing website, and moved the poems to here.  This page is a list of all my poems with links of where you can find them.  Just like my Table of Films , except it's not a table because I couldn't find or work out how to add the table.  The button I thought would be to add a table doesn't work.  Do read and see what you think?  The link is also in the right hand gutter so don't forget to check it out occationally!

Personally things still are not great for me.  I'm struggling so much at the moment, all I want to do is sleep and just not bother getting up.  It takes me ages to get going in the morning, to get dressed, and all I hope for is that eventually I can go to sleep, I look forward to going to sleep.  I haven't eaten really in 12 days, I have a sore throat, I'm always tired and cold.  I have marks on the back of my hand from where I cut myself so I'm exhausted from trying to hide it!  Yet I really want to shout from the roof tops what I've been doing and how I'm feeling, but I don't want anyone to know, I don't want to talk about it and I don't want people to see.  I'm so full of contridictions at the moments it's unreal!

I just don't know what the best thing to do is right now! 

tags: update  upgrade  poetry  personal  cutting  depression