I'm not what you think I am
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- Updated: 23 Jul 2008
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Today
posted Mon 19 Mar 07
Work was interesting today. M was in a down mood because she had had a bad weekend with her daughter, but she didn't know about Thursday. Great, I thought, gives me a break. Oh I celebrated too early. L emailed me to see if I could babysit for this week. I replied and she had also asked how I was doing, so I started to ask her not to tell M. Before I could send the email H phoned L, well M left the room, which means they are talking about things that are not to be heard by everyone. This means that L had told M about Thursday. SHit! Last thing I need. So H hasn't asked me or talked to me about it. I'm hoping she won't at all. I'm hoping I can just forget Thursday ever happened. The marks on my hand are near gone. Looks more like a rash gone wrong than anything else, which suits me fine. I can come up with something for that! The problem in that N is in tomorrow, N and M are the ones suposingly helping me through this period of toughness that I am going through. Tomorrow afternoon will be the interesting part! One thing I'm not sure of though is if L realises the significance of me scratching the back of my hand! Not sure she does. If she doesn't she won't have mentioned it to M.... here's hoping.
How do I get myself into these situations?
I am not going to freak myself out about any of it anymore. I just have to stop caring and just deal with things as they come. Not to worry about anything and just see what happens. It's not like I'm suicidal or anything, I can't think of anything worse. I'm just stressed and frustrated. I suppose it all comes down to the fact I don't deal with negative feelings very well. I'm sleeping well, a little too well at the moment. I always seam tired!
Have you seen today's weather?! We've had brilliant blue skies followed by snow followed by brilliant blue skies etc. etc. etc. It's unreal. Although the temperature has sucked today. I've been cold all day. I hate being cold. At least I can cover my hand this way! I wear big long sleeve jumpers and arm/hand warmers. Crazy, crazy weather?!
How do I get myself into these situations?
I am not going to freak myself out about any of it anymore. I just have to stop caring and just deal with things as they come. Not to worry about anything and just see what happens. It's not like I'm suicidal or anything, I can't think of anything worse. I'm just stressed and frustrated. I suppose it all comes down to the fact I don't deal with negative feelings very well. I'm sleeping well, a little too well at the moment. I always seam tired!
Have you seen today's weather?! We've had brilliant blue skies followed by snow followed by brilliant blue skies etc. etc. etc. It's unreal. Although the temperature has sucked today. I've been cold all day. I hate being cold. At least I can cover my hand this way! I wear big long sleeve jumpers and arm/hand warmers. Crazy, crazy weather?!
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