The met up

I have to admit when I arranged to see my friend and after he admitted that he had had feelings for me all those years ago I did freak out slightly, but I decided that I had to met him.  If nothing else to but those 'what if's' to rest.

So we met up and I quickly realised that I did not have the same feelings for him anymore, although he made it quite obvious that he still had those feelings for me.  The clincher came when we kissed and I felt nothing, not a thing.  I couldn't wait for the kiss to be over.  So with a friends help I wrote him a short message saying that as much as I wanted it I didn't have any of those feelings I had for him over eight years ago. 

A bit of a pain because I know we would have been amazing together, we were first time around even though we didn't date.  I always have the most amazing time with him.  But if I don't have feelings for him what can you do. 

tags: feelings  fuck  frustration