Sometimes things change

I know that there are many things that are out of our hands, and as much as we would like to believe that we were in control of everything we are not.  This is the hardest thing to except, we has humans need to feel that we can control everything, and that nothing can hurt of us.  

This is of course bollocks.  

Most things in this world we can do nothing about, we can not prevent and all we can do is cope with the fall out.  This is what happened to me this week.  Things have happened which I have no control over and can do sweet FA about.  This is the hardest part of life I have problems with.

I want to know I can do everything.  That I control everything.  So when something happens that screw everything up but not my fault, I blame myself.  It's stupid really, I know that, but I still can't help blaming myself and getting upset.  I really do have to work on that or else I'm going to struggle with every unforseen circumstance.

 We all have to deal with the unforseen circumstances and deal with the aftermath, espcially of the ones we can't plan for, the ones that hit us from nowhere.  That is what's happened to me this week.  So I am now dealing with it.... well attempting to anyway.

tags: anger  depression  fears  frustration  life  personal  work  

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