I went to the hospital yesterday to as part of this whole 'what's wrong with my digestion thing'. I have to have more bloods taken, endoscopy and a barium swallow. The only reason they are doing these investigatory things is because I've lost so much weight. If it wasn't for that they would have put it down to the depression.
I have discovered that the only way I can keep weight on is to eat fatty foods. I eat so little in the day, if I eat health food like I used to I would just be loosing weight hand over fist so I have to try and eat fatty foods so that I can keep weight on. Even so I have lost weight and I'm not even excersing. I'm in trouble.
My mood's not getting any better and cutting is getting worse. I don't know what to do. I'm screwed. I'm not doing seven things this week. There is nothing there.
Aw crap. I hope you feel better soon. I know you can't just stop feeling
bad, but try to remember you don't deserve to feel bad like this. You're
not a bad person.
I couldn't read your post today (only the opening paragraph in the main
page). Some problem with the server, I guess.
Spike, you are a good person, the young people near you need your help,
and we all need good persons like you (and in the best possible shape, so
it's good that your health is taken care of). I hope all your hospital
exams have the good results that we expect.
Hopefully you will get some answers soon and can start to get things sorted
out.
In the meantime, I do hope that you will find moments of happiness to
help you get to feeling better.