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Dreams
posted Fri 10 Nov 06
Wednesday night I had a dream and this was a dream I really wanted to come true. I was just so fucking happy that I didn't want to wake up. When I began to wake up I knew I was dreaming adn I would lose everything, and when I was fully awake my eyes were wet, and my pillow had a wet patch on. I had been crying and I'm sure it's because I knew I was waking up. I was just so happy.
I auditioning for a musical. It was Christine in Phantom of the Opera. I didn't get the part. I was the understudy however. One night the singer was ill, so I got to sing. I was on stage and I sang my heart out and enjoyed every bloody second of it. I was transported into a whole new world. Every atom in my body was happy and over the moon. I have never felt this happy outside of the dream world. My heart hurt, it was beating so loudly. Even now I can feel the happiness within me, my eyes watering because I know I will never feel like that, and I know I will never do it even though I would love to play that role and to sing those songs. I would do anything to make that happen.
Anyway I went to the dressing room after the show, I was happy. I didn't care if the main actress came back, I had sung on stage live in front of people and nothing could bring me down. I started to undress and defrock from my charactor. There was a knock at the door. I quickly put on a dressing gown and opened the door. There standing in front of me was Andrew Lloyd Webber! I was blown away. He said he loved my rendition of Christine. It was unique, not how he would have chosen it, but he was really impressed with what I did with the music.
He told me to meet him at his place, he'd send a limo. He left. I was blown away. I didn't think I could get any happier but I was. I sat down in a chair, I was so happy I started to cry. I was amazed.
So I went to ALW's place as we talked about music, how I saw it, how he saw it. He asked me what I wanted. I told him that I love to sing, but I also love to write my own musical. He thought it was great, but I told him that I couldn't compose music, I could create fantastic lyrics and fantastic harmonies but I just couldn't come up with my own tune. He looked as me as if I was nuts, but he took me on in and helped me to learn to compose music. We worked so hard, we laughed so hard. You should have heard the waltz we wrote. It was so beautiful I could have cried. It was stunning.It just went round and round and round in my head, we danced to it over and over again. I was blown away. I though singing on stage was magnificant but this was just something else.
I woke up after that and I can't rememeber what the waltz was or how it went I only remember the feelings I had, the feelings of XTC, it's killing me because I really wish it was real. I want that to be my life, although no with ALW. I want to write more like Bernstien or Schönberg. I like ALW, I do but I do prefere Berstien or Schönberg.
I wish I could write music, I really do.
I auditioning for a musical. It was Christine in Phantom of the Opera. I didn't get the part. I was the understudy however. One night the singer was ill, so I got to sing. I was on stage and I sang my heart out and enjoyed every bloody second of it. I was transported into a whole new world. Every atom in my body was happy and over the moon. I have never felt this happy outside of the dream world. My heart hurt, it was beating so loudly. Even now I can feel the happiness within me, my eyes watering because I know I will never feel like that, and I know I will never do it even though I would love to play that role and to sing those songs. I would do anything to make that happen.
Anyway I went to the dressing room after the show, I was happy. I didn't care if the main actress came back, I had sung on stage live in front of people and nothing could bring me down. I started to undress and defrock from my charactor. There was a knock at the door. I quickly put on a dressing gown and opened the door. There standing in front of me was Andrew Lloyd Webber! I was blown away. He said he loved my rendition of Christine. It was unique, not how he would have chosen it, but he was really impressed with what I did with the music.
He told me to meet him at his place, he'd send a limo. He left. I was blown away. I didn't think I could get any happier but I was. I sat down in a chair, I was so happy I started to cry. I was amazed.
So I went to ALW's place as we talked about music, how I saw it, how he saw it. He asked me what I wanted. I told him that I love to sing, but I also love to write my own musical. He thought it was great, but I told him that I couldn't compose music, I could create fantastic lyrics and fantastic harmonies but I just couldn't come up with my own tune. He looked as me as if I was nuts, but he took me on in and helped me to learn to compose music. We worked so hard, we laughed so hard. You should have heard the waltz we wrote. It was so beautiful I could have cried. It was stunning.It just went round and round and round in my head, we danced to it over and over again. I was blown away. I though singing on stage was magnificant but this was just something else.
I woke up after that and I can't rememeber what the waltz was or how it went I only remember the feelings I had, the feelings of XTC, it's killing me because I really wish it was real. I want that to be my life, although no with ALW. I want to write more like Bernstien or Schönberg. I like ALW, I do but I do prefere Berstien or Schönberg.
I wish I could write music, I really do.
write to me, don't be frightened... I don't bite....much! (4)
1. Spacefrog left...
Sat 11 Nov 06 4:05 pm
I wish I had dreams that coherent!
2. Spike left...
Sat 11 Nov 06 11:48 pm :: http://www.beastlyspike.blog-city.com/
Maybe we should team up and then we could be a writing team and come up
with fantastic stuff.
3. Spacefrog left...
Mon 13 Nov 06 9:42 pm
Hey, that doesn't sound like a bad idea. If you want to send me some of
your lyrics I could see if I can set them to music. I haven't written music
for aaages.
4. Spike left...
Mon 13 Nov 06 11:35 pm :: http://www.beastlyspike.blog-city.com/
Let me fish out some lyrics and your email address and I will send
something over and my thoughts as I wrote the lyrics to help you.
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