I know that....

• I know that at some point I have to let S go
• I know that S will never feel for me what I feel for him
• I know that this is the first time in my life I have ever felt this way before, towards anyone.
• I know that it is not right that I mope and think about him at all times
• I know that I can't handle the pain and the emptiness I feel every day.  It's just too much to bare.
• I know that as long as I live I never want to feel this way again
• I know that no one should ever have to feel this way
• I know that if this ever happens to me again, I will not survive.
• I know that I want S so much that I ache to the point I can barely breath
• I know that I need to purge myself of S but I have no idea how
• I know I hate being like this
• I know I need a break from my feelings
• I know I hate S for every coming into my life.
• I know I want to hurt S physically and emotionally so he can feel how I'm feeling
• I know I hate the fact I was him to hurt so much
• I know I am a pathetic human being
  

tags: flatmate  hate  frustration