I hate

I hate S and the way he's made me feel

I hate my new job

I hate the fact I'm not brave enough to tell my mother the hold truth

I hate the fact I feel hate

I hate the fact I'm not brave enough to end it

I hate the fact I want to cry all over again

I hate being so isolated

I hate the fact I can't call someone right now and ask them for help

I hate the fact I have mental health issues

I hate the fact I'm still on the waiting list for CAT

I hate the fact I can't stop thinking about S

I hate the fact I know I should sleep but I don't think I can

I hate the fact I considered having a high speed car crash on my way home this evening

I hate the fact I'm so pathetic

I hate the fact that I hate

I want to become a recluse again but I know I can't and that's because of S and how he opened my eyes and my  heart and I hate him for it.  I want to be a recluse and enjoy it like I use to.  Why did he have to come into my life?  I wish I could have amnesia so I can forget him and all the feelings that go with him.

I hate being me right now

I hate the hot salty tears streaming down my face

I hate my asthma which makes it harder for me to try and breath whilst crying

I hate everything and everyone.

I just hate.... I am hate! 

tags: feelings