Ghosts, beanbags, PS2 and all things good.

Talk about being lazy.  I have clocked up now 6 hours on final fantasy 10, and watched the first three and a half disks out of fifty of the complete 10 seasons of Stargate SG1.  A bargin if I may say so as I picked them up for £65.  Now I own the first season on VHS which I bought many years ago and have watched a number of times.  Now originally I thought I would miss the first season out and go straight on to season two.  I am watching season one and have to say I don't remember a lot of the episodes.  It's great being able to watch them as if I am watching them for the first time.  It makes it special.

My favourite episode so far is still The Nox.  With Armin Shimmerman (who plays Quark in Star Trek: Deep Space Nine).  It's a really lovely episode with the moral never judge a book by it's cover.  

I have bought myself a beanbag so that I could curl up and read a book in comfort, however it's a lot bigger than I though it would be.  It's seriously comfortable, and it makes it's easy to watch TV or play on my PS2 for hours at a time.  I'm watching SG1 on my computer and playing PS2 at the same time.  It's rediclous really but I'm loving every second of it.

Dennis has been up to his tricks again.  He move book marks in four of my bookmarks in books I'm currently reading.  S thinks I'm nuts and thinks I'm having him on, but I swear I'm not.  I have a ghost that only bothers me, neither of the boys, just me..... now ain't I just the lucky one.

N is back from his holiday and don't we know about it.  The kitchen looks like a bombs exploded in it, but never mind.  The three of us were downstairs watching TV and then N disappeared and then, and only then did S and I started talking and being like us... doesn't that sound like we're a couple.  I know were not, I do, really I do, but sometimes when it's just him and me it does feel like we're a couple, maybe I'm reading so much into it because it's what I want more than anything else in the world.  I really can't read him and I am beginning to doubt how I feel, how I act around him and what not.  It's not good.  I wish I had the guts to tell him how I feel, I wish I had the guts to just kiss him.  I also wish, however, that he would give me a sign, any sign what so ever that he had feelings for me.  If he doesn't have feelings for me, and things are never go to happen between us I wish that my feelings would be taken away and that I would forget him and my feelings.

More than anything else in the world this sucks.  One way or another I want him out of my system or completely in my system.  I just need a sign, that's all I need.

tags: ps2  feelings  flatmates  frustration  ghost  

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