Better day

After the kind (and sensible) words of Phil (thank you so much for giving me the push I needed), I sent an email to M asking her if I read the situation right in the meeting that I was being asked to let things go so 'The Husband' could come back up to work.  As she read the message she turned round and said No!  That was not it at all, and she was horrified that my co-worker actually brought this up and made me feel the villian.  We had a good talk about it and I actually talked about how the meeting feel.

I also comment on the fact for the longest time I've felt like I was the villian of the piece and that it was all my fault that this happened.  Although most of the time I do feel like that, but I'm beginning to get angry about the whole situation.  The point of the meeting yesterday so to be open and honest about what's been going on.  That meeting might have been open and honest for my Co-Worker but not for me, I couldn't say anything of what I was feeling.  I am now angry that she made me feel like this in a meeting that was about how we feel about each other at work.  'The Husband' should never have come into it.

I am glad I had the talk with M and I do feel a lot better about it.  Although I am angry about it all, I can't help feel that I really am the villian of the piece.

In other news I had my back scan today to see what the lumps in my back are.  They are nothing to worry about just fatty lumps.  It's up to the doctors now but I could have injections to get rid of them.  At least I now know they have nothing to do with my back pain.  A huge weight of my mind! 

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